155 days left

I got to keep talking about ORD because its what I'm heading for and what I need right now. NS doesn't make sense, further more, commando is all about slavery; It is just uplifted and glorified slavery; The regime's robotic puppet, we work in their will and when rendered useless we are just thrown aside. Regret or not, I still treasure the friends I made in there.

5 months left and I realized I had been not working my brains alot. I am dumb this moment. Discipline or not I must revise my JC content, at least to maintain my intelligence. Working in army, under all those 'regulars' who don't really have much academics, had grown to be stupid like them. My worse sacrifice is my violin, really lost alot of skills and agility and the special violinist's feelin'. Have got to start regularly practicing again to recover from the NS trauma.